Happy ANNiversary!!!

Do you have certain words that you just love? That when you hear them or say them or read them, they just make you smile? I do! I love the words: Anniversary, Annotation, Announcement. I even have a state that I love: Maryland. Why?? Because its capitol, Annapolis, is a great word. (Also I like the Mary and Ann part.)

So today makes me happy. It is my double ANNiversary!!!

Two years ago today, April 19, 2005, I was fat. I was unhappy. I had just told my husband that I wanted a divorce. I was deeply in love with Tim, who was married to someone else. I was traveling constantly for a job that I loathed, working for people I loathed. I dreaded going to work. I had a house I didn't want. I was stuck. So I did what I normally did....had a giant lunch, sat on my butt all day at work, wished for something better. And then! I sent Mary an email and I told her I was going to Weight Watchers that night.

I was so nervous that night going in the door. I didn't really know what to expect. I knew that Mary and my Mom had both had great success with Weight Watchers, and I knew I was desperate to get in control of my life. The meeting was awesome. Right away I told the receptionist I was nervous and she said she had been too, but that I was in the right place. I really was.

So, today, on my two year Weight Watchers ANNiversary I am 50 pounds lighter and I ran over 4 miles today and I LOVED IT!

One year ago today, April 19, 2006, I was sad. I had just lost my job. Granted it was a job that I more than detested, but leaving it hadn't been on my terms. I was deeply and dangerously falling into depression. I was trying to work out at the gym, but honestly I was just so sad and miserable that it was hard to go regularly. I was worried about money, and what to do with my life, and I just wanted to sit in my pajamas on the couch and cry. And then! After a few weeks of knowing I needed to do something new and just for me, I signed up for pilates and started my lessons.

I was so nervous going in that door, but everyone was so nice and friendly. I didn't know much about pilates, but I had been wanting to try it out. The first lesson was a bit scary, but I could feel that it would work if I stuck it out. I felt like it was just right for me.

So today, on my one year Pilates ANNiversary I am stronger and leaner than I have ever been in my life. I have muscles everywhere. I am longer (1/2 inch!) and thinner and I even have better posture.

So, even though I didn't run as fast as I wanted today, and even though I'll never be the best pilates student, I am SO proud of myself and happy with me. I haven't ever felt that before. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up, but I am darn sure happy with my life and where I am at now.