Fessing up to the Internets

Before my web-fession, I have to tell you an ick. I just set my vitamins on the table and went to grab water and when I came back one was missing. So I chased the Maddie (almost three years old!!) around and finally caught her. Then I stuck my fingers in her mouth and went vitamin fishing. I was really in there good, but I didn't have much luck, as I was deciding I would have to go deeper I leaned down and saw the vitamin under the chair. Ick.


So here it is, my web-fession: I gained back about 4 pounds. I am a fraud. I had to move my 50 pounds lost magnet to the back of the fridge. But the thing is, and I know this will sound like bunk, but I don't know that it is all fat. I kinda think it is some muscle. My clothes don't fit different. In fact! My goal jeans that I try on each week fit better this week than my 50 pound lost week. And I did go up in weights in pump class, so maybe???


But! It sucks! And I don't want to gain anymore. Ever. But Also!! I don't think I will ever weigh 140. I think 150 is the lowest I can get while still eating. And honestly, I like eating. I won't give that up. As long as I look fit and healthy I should be happy. No flab should be enough!


Part of the trouble is the drinking. My body will not lose weight if I drink. When I was losing it was during Lent when I wasn't drinking. I am not going to drink for the 17 week training for the half marathon either, so that will help.

The other part is that I am hungry! All the working out make me hungry. I don't think one can just ignore that. I need to eat more beans. Those fill me up pretty good. I also need to stop eating bread. It is a trigger food. As are crackers, chips, etc.... I also MUST give up the desserts. We have been making a super yummy dessert based on the Peanut Butter 1 Point Yummies, which I have previously mentioned on here. These we call the Not 1 Point Peanut Butter Yummies. They are made by dumping vanilla or chocolate ice cream (low-fat or fat-free) into the blender, adding milk, dark chocolate syrup and peanut butter. Blend until yummy. Eat and enjoy. We must stop making these. Or at least make them a lot less often.


So, Mary suggested I start pointing again. I think I will try. Here is today's plan:

Fiber One Bar - 2 points
FF/SF Grande Latte - 3 points
Carrot Cake Clif Bar - 4 points
Laura's Lean burger and bun - 7 points
Sweet Potato "fries" - 3 points
Veggies for snacks - 0 points
Dessert (popcorn??) - 3 points

To the total for the day is = 22 points.

That's good. I need to stick with that. And workout. But I get hungry! I need more zero-point snacks around. Carrots alone won't cut it!

As soon as the rain stops I am going to ride my bike to the gym to swim. Or! If it doesn't stop in 30 minutes I am going to drive to the gym, run on the treadmill and then swim.

Tonight we will watch a movie since all of our shows are done, well except for Sopranos. We should get a lot more NetFlix in now that we don't have Monday, Tuesday and Thursday shows to watch.